My birthday is Sunday; but since I won't be back to work until Tues; and I won't see my BFF until Wed she got me balloons today

I also have started bleeding - hopefully it won't last too long; and we'll be able to go to the beach this weekend.

Not sure when to expect it; knowing my luck it'll probably start on my birthday.  Just what I need...

Anyway, looks like we are going to wait at least another month before we try again. I may try the soy again; as I do have a bunch left from several months ago.  I'd like to try again right away; but we do need to refocus and work on bills, etc. Remember the whole ordeal about not paying the electric bill - we don't want to run into the same problem again.

hCG was negative - I should start bleeding soon.

Well, technically it was a 3.

Come on - I'm going crazy over here!!!! This is the first time I've had my blood drawn and have not taken a pregnancy test on the same day.

Either I need to post on here to get them to call; or go potty (seriously, a girl's gotta pee).

I have like a gallon of water today, or at least it seems that way.

It's also getting closer to time for me to go home, but I can't leave yet!

It has always been this way; every time I have to either give blood; or back when I would donate blood they always had a rough time sticking me.  The first stick I had for this pregnancy was bad; and I chronicled it earlier.  The 2nd time she had to stick me in my hand; and it didn't hurt, or bruise that bad  I had increased my water intake that day, to hopefully help, but it didn't work.

This time I drank a TON of water. We ran into a problem b/c she was out of the smaller butterfly needles.  She stuck me in my arm and got a little bit of blood; but nowhere near enough for the test - it's a fairly large vial that they use for this test.  Then she found another spot on my hand, which she had used last week.  She was able to get the blood this time.  So, now on top of the bruise that I got the first time, I will have two more.  She told me not to come back until after the 4th b/c she won't get any more butterflies until then.

I'm not sure if I could wrangle them up at a pharmacy or something in case they do want more blood?

Anyway - as always, it's in God's hands right now - pray that this baby sticks around... his momma and daddy would love to have a little one in a few months.

As a break for myself from the whole infertility thing...

It has not rained at all in 31 days.  And the 7 day forecast has zero rain.  Our poor yard looks terrible; but Shaft & I are too lazy to water it. I could say that we are too 'green', but most of y'all know us well enough to know that's a load of crap.   Yea, we care about the environment and aren't overtly wasteful, but we aren't 'green' by any stretch of the imagination.

For me this has been a big change from when I was younger; remember Exxon Valdez? Yea, that summer we went on vacation, and my parents would stop at an Exxon gas station, and I would force them to go somewhere else b/c Exxon was HORRIBLE and distroyed all of those animals.  Now it definitely would have been ironic had I gone to work for them; but I do work in the oil & gas industry, and I even billed out a bunch of barge invoices yesterday.

Anyway, our yard looks awful.  Last night at 5pm when I got home from work I saw neighbors all over the place watering their yards. I get the point of watering them, and I realize that doing it closer to dark; or early in the morning isn't always fesiable; but it makes me wonder if people realize watering them at the hottest part of the day doesn't do a whole lot of good anyway, that it's basically a waste of water.

Another bad thing about the lack of rain; they have issued a burn ban - well, if you are aware the 4th of July is coming up; and unless we get some rain between now and next week no firework fun for us .   Also, if you aren unaware, my 32nd birthday is on the 5th, and b/c of that I just LOVE the 4th... it's always like a pre-party for my birthday.

I've been talking about our lack of 'greenness' (is that even a word?).  Well, we are going to a X-mas in July party next month; and Shaft is going to fry a turkey... cannot wait.  Well, our turkey frier still had oil in it from a couple of years ago; apparently peanut oil does not conjeal - so Shaft poured it out in our compost pile, on top of ashes from our grill; and grass clippings.  He did this sometime last week (I can't remember which day, either Wed or Thurs).  Well, at some point on Saturday afternoon while I was taking a nap our backyard caught on fire.  Shaft smelled some smoke; and initially figured that someone was cooking something - but then he heard some crackling. He thought, man is someone burning stuff in their yard??? (we live in a sub-division where open fires are illegal).  He goes outside and sees our fence, and part of the yard on fire - he runs back inside and picks up the phone, and calls 911.  We have a transformer box in our yard; right next to where the fire was... lovely - well, they tell him not to put water on an electrical fire.  The box was not on fire; it was just next to the box.  He and our neighbors get the fire put out; and the fire department show up to make sure it's all out.  They claim 'natural causes' - I blame the peanut oil.  We also had a a pooper scooper that's stainless steel, and the sun probably hit it just right to spark the area.  So, now we have an area of fence that we need to replace b/c Titan can fit thru the hole; and last night he got into the neighbors yard, and they left their gate open, so he was in the front yard.

Anyway - we need RAIN!!!! This is awful for June - we need the rain, areas are already on water restrictions, and we will be hitting that soon.

My hCG went up to 29 (should be closer to 80); the progesterone stayed at 10.

The plan is to wait until next Monday to test again, and if the numbers do not rise they will have me stop the progesterone support.

Jen... do you have any words of encouragement; or knowledge about this particular issue that may help.  I'm trying to be hopeful, but I don't think there is much if any hope left.

They took my blood - this time on my hand - last time it was on the backside of my forearm (where it's all hairy).  I have terrible veins. I tried drinking more water like the lady said; but apparently not enough.  Anyway, the wait begins. I am praying for good numbers.

Of course after I leave the office I get a couple more pee-sticks.  I took one, and it was obviously positive. Seriously, I'm certifiable... hehehe

Anyway, I will post later today whenever I get the results.

I am in a constant state of 'up/down'. I have no clue from one minute to the next if I'm pregnant or not. I did get my progesterone, so I was only a few hours behind in taking it today.  I have zero symptoms of being pregnant except for the missing period.  I've had a few odd feelings over the past few days, but there can be several reasons for each of them, that have nothing to do with me being pregnant.

Earlier today I was looking at maternity clothing online; even though I doubt I'll ever actually wear maternity clothing b/c of my size.

Then I was looking at miscarriages and how they related to low progesterone; then I found a website where someone said that blood tests when someone is on progesterone supplements is generally useless b/c of how the progesterone gets absorbed into the ute, not the blood.

I found out earlier today that a girl we go to church with is pregnant, and due in Feb.  If I lose this baby her pregnancy is going to be really hard for me.  Part of the problem is that this particular person is constantly asking me if I seriously want a kid; and if I do I could take her's for the day to see what it's like. Yes, she knows what I'm going thru, and is trying to pass her child off to me (as a joke).  Well, it ain't funny; and now she's pregnant with a second one.

Anyway, I'm all over the board today, not sure what to think/do.  Hopefully we get good numbers tomorrow.

I spoke with Shaft earlier today, and he's actually starting to get excited about this pregnancy; I just hope that this baby sticks, and I will be able to make him a father.

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I have no clue why the layout is all funky... maybe it's like the question marks from a couple of weeks ago; that it'll go away on it's own.